"I will never give up, because the moment I do, I lose my purpose and vision why I started on this journey in the first place. And since you're on the same journey as me, I'll push you forward, as much as I know you will when I fall."That guy was a classmate that inspired me to work extremely hard in my last year in secondary school, allowing me to rank among the top in my school.
Before I started to study, he was like far better then me in every non-linguistic subjects. Thats why he said he'll push me forward... But in the end, I surpassed even him and many many others...
His words became and embodiment of what I believe in, two things :
- competition
and
- endurance
Anybody who knows me knows that I'm exceptionally competitive... T0 the point of obsession. Everyone and everything around me is perceived as competition, be it in the creative field, auxiliary field, or in the logical field.
Ironically, because of my intense competitive spirit, I become very depressed when I'm unable to reach my sky-high goal...
(i.e Trying to get Certificate of Merit [aka. The White Letter], from Poly)
The second is something I do, or rather don't know how to do... That is once I start on something, I don't want to give up. Or I just tell myself I don't know how to...
Its crazy. Especially when I take up like tons of commitments at one time, but somehow, this mentality enables me to take up stuff lots of people would be crushed under...
I'm not smart, at least not in the exceptional way... But the thing that differentiates me from many others is that I do not want to give up, lest I fall too far back and become unable to pick myself up again...
The same goes for the army.
National Service is one part of my life's journey that is unconditionally forced onto me. I'm not complaining or anything, but I want to make sure that every single day, every single moment is well spent there...
Be it networking with people, or doing physical training, or even learning drill...
I want to be a professional at what I do. Thats why I cannot afford to take one step back, because the future is too uncertain for those who keep stopping to take a breath.
I want to be a pro - at whatever I do that will benefit me.
I want to bench press a 100kg and marvel at myself doing so.
I want to do my 20th pull up and laugh at how I struggled to do IFAH in primary school
I want to break the 10 minutes mark for my 2.4 km run and feel the exhilaration running through my body.
There is only one journey. That journey is time.
Its what makes us all human. But what separates us humans are between those who know how to make full use of "Time" at every moment, and those who would rather sit back and watch the race.
We all got a race to finish.
What would you look back upon when your race is done?
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